Baby Number Two? {.026}

Yesterday morning, Quentin and I dropped Jayden off at daycare as usual. I went to help Jayden put his coat away and Quentin went to put his lunch box in the refrigerator. This morning in particular, Jayden’s teacher was doing before care & we always get chatting ’cause she is amazingly nice & friendly. Love her to death! So we were chatting away and she tells me that Jayden has been telling her things about me. So, I’m deathly afraid that it’s something like “Mommy doesn’t love me.” or “My Mommy’s mean”, you know something like that because boy was he being a brat that morning.

I ask her what it is and she tells me that Jayden has been saying that there is a baby in my belly! WHAT?! Yes, I she said it. It made me second-guess my own body for a second. Before I answered her I said in my head “Wait, am I pregnant!?” I snapped back to the reality that I knew I wasn’t. I told her that I wasn’t pregnant and that we weren’t planning to start trying. She looked surprised and said that Jayden has been saying and I quote “Baby, Mommy’s belly!”

Well, if that wasn’t a hint that he wants a permanent playmate I don’t know what is. Trust me if things weren’t so crazy right now, baby number two would certainly be on the way. But, I think when Jayden is in Kindergarten or First Grade it will be the perfect time. Who knows, by that time we might not want another one.

For now, Jayden will just have to be satisfied with his best friend, Teddy.

I don’t care how poor a man is; if he has family, he’s rich.” 

Dan Wilcox and Thad Mumford, “Identity Crisis,” M*A*S*H

 

Moving on {.014}

It was a tough, but Quentin and I have decided to take Jayden out of the daycare that he is in currently. Feelings like he wasn’t being taken care of properly were floating around for a little while now, but we weren’t 100% sure. Well, not only is he not being taken care of/supervised properly but the other children aren’t either.
 
The hardest thing to accept about this is that it’s not the teacher that is for his specific age group that’s the problem, it’s the teacher that does before care & after care. Jayden’s actual teacher is so nurturing and you can tell she really loves what she does. One bad apple really does spoil the bunch. I know that when he goes to  his new daycare (whichever one that is – not sure yet) he will still ask for his teacher and ask me if he’s going to see her.
 
It’s going to break our hearts to have him “change schools” so to speak. But, his health and well-being are more important than everything else & that is just something that we cannot skimp on.
 
Wish us luck.
 
Have you ever experienced having to change your child’s school, camp, or location in general?
 
There is nothing wrong with change, if it is in the right direction
Winston Churchill

Perception {.013}

I want to be perfect. I think everyone does. No one likes to make mistakes – especially in front of other people & especially when dealing with parenting. I feel like a failure every time I make one, even if it’s something small. Yesterday was no different… except I made three small mistakes that affected my mood for the rest of the day. Apparently I didn’t fill out the summer camp form for my little one {which I found out later – I did.} I forgot to give Jayden milk for school {that I didn’t know about in the first place} & felt like a mini failure. I don’t like him going without anything…ever. It just bothers me. Oh, and I didn’t do the dishes like I should have {bad prioritizing}. What bothered me wasn’t only that I didn’t do these things despite my human flaw and mistake making, but I know people would and probably did judge me {“People” meaning one of my son’s teachers}. It’s almost like she wants something to be wrong. She never has anything good to say…about anything. I’m sure she thinks I’m terrible parent or whatever. I like to consider myself and active parent/perfectionist. I don’t like for others to be in control of their perception of me. In other words I don’t want to give anyone a reason to think things about me that aren’t true. I just have to face the fact that people will talk about you and think certain things about you {& your child} no matter what you do. I just hate it.

“The most valuable thing you can make is a mistake
– you can’t learn anything from being perfect.”
Adam Osborne