Fatigue {.049}

fa·tigue [fuh-teeg]

1. weariness from bodily or mental exertion.

Most moms have experienced this thing called fatigue, whether it’s from running around with the kids or dealing with everyday stresses. In my case, it’s definitely all mental – ’cause I don’t exercise {or do anything psychically strenuous for that matter}. I usually blog everyday and I love it, but lately I’ve been going to bed around 9:00PM, which tells me {and my body} that there is way too much going on. Just to name a few things, the trasmission on the car is going, I’m in my final two weeks of classes, I’m helping Quentin open his new training studio, and I’m trying my best not to get buried in this apartment full of stuff that I need to clean out. I could go on and on with the list of things I have to do or think I have to do. I’m certainly motivated to do more and excited about the future, but my body has just been shutting down lately.

I can tell you one thing though, Jayden and I have been rocking the eff out to Gotye’s ‘Somebody That I Used To Know‘; that has helped keep me sane. I listen to it while I’m brushing my teeth, while I’m doing the dishes, while I’m giving Jayden a bath and pretty much any other time Jayden says “Mommy, I sing the song?”. I never really know exactly what song he’s referring to {since he enjoys quite a few}, but I always play that one and he says “Yea!” – so I guess that’s the right song. It’s amazing to me how music can change your mood and motivation level. As, I’m typing this blog post right now, my eyes are watering, I have a headache and i’m hungry {again}, but I’m happy. I love writing and I’m blessed that I have the opportunity to do it everyday and share it with the world. That’s all that matters in life right? Finding something you love and someone you love and push yourself to enjoy every minute of it all.

Have you ever felt fatigued? How did you break out of the vicious cycle of conking out early?

 “There will be plenty of time to sleep once you are dead

– Benjamin Franklin

Can I have 28 hours in the day? {.42}

There aren’t enough hours in the day to do everything I want to do {including relax with my family}. If it did it all everyday I would go to sleep no later than 3:00AM and have to wake up two hours later to do it all over again. I’d love to do it, but I want to be around for my family and living like that is a sure way to shorten your life span. Sleep is more important than most realize.

The obvious answer to the feeling like there isn’t enough time in the day is to prioritize. Here is the moment of truth for me, as much as I try and as much as I make lists… I am not good at prioritizing. There I said it. In fact, I’m horrible at it!

Some days I am on point, other days you’d wonder if I had a brain. I’ve tried composing a daily list of things I should do before the day is out, but everyday is different and my family’s needs are going to be different everyday. I work like a machine, I like things to be structured and pretty much the same everyday. Life doesn’t work like that and I’m not having the easiest time adjusting. But, something has go to give.

Last night, I fell asleep at 7:30PM. That is a record for me and it’s not a good thing. But, I got a lot done the day before, which was great! I went to sleep at 1:00AM which wasn’t horrible, but there were so many things going through my mind even as I was laying my head on the pillow. I was mentally drained. I was thinking about what I could have done better, maybe I should have done the dishes before homework, that could have left more time for me to read blogs…It never stops.

 

I’m taking action. I cannot live like a frazzled chimpanzee anymore. It’s not a good feeling. I’m always on edge and always thinking about what’s next and who needs what from me. I want my mind to relax a little, but still get things done. I want to have my weekends free of cleaning and other things I could be getting done during the week so I can enjoy that time with my family. I’m making a project for myself. I’m making a list of all of the things I have to do during the week big and small, what is the most important, and a schedule of when I should have it all done. The most important thing that I’m doing {that my cousin taught me but I never listened to} is I’m giving myself a bedtime. Yes, I am going back to grade school and cutting myself off from doing stuff that I could do the next day. I’m putting my list on a timeline. I get so caught up in the details and making everything perfect, I take way too long to do simple things. I notice that when I set a timer or when I have to go somewhere, things get done so much faster.

So, it’s on – I’m taking my sanity back. We’ll see how it goes.

 

“No matter how busy you may think you are, you must find time for reading,

or surrender yourself to self-chosen ignorance.”

 

– Confucius  

Sleep {.015}

Last night I felt like a zombie. It was a mentally exhausting day.

Jayden is wired, not ready to go to bed & where is mom?

Blissfully sleeping on the couch.

Quentin took care of him for the remainder of the night & when I peeled my eyes open at around 9:30 he was still up.

How my little one has more energy than me – I don’t know.

I’ll tell you one thing though…I woke up refreshed!

A good laugh and a long sleep are the best cures in the doctor’s book.

Irish Proverb