Perception {.013}

I want to be perfect. I think everyone does. No one likes to make mistakes – especially in front of other people & especially when dealing with parenting. I feel like a failure every time I make one, even if it’s something small. Yesterday was no different… except I made three small mistakes that affected my mood for the rest of the day. Apparently I didn’t fill out the summer camp form for my little one {which I found out later – I did.} I forgot to give Jayden milk for school {that I didn’t know about in the first place} & felt like a mini failure. I don’t like him going without anything…ever. It just bothers me. Oh, and I didn’t do the dishes like I should have {bad prioritizing}. What bothered me wasn’t only that I didn’t do these things despite my human flaw and mistake making, but I know people would and probably did judge me {“People” meaning one of my son’s teachers}. It’s almost like she wants something to be wrong. She never has anything good to say…about anything. I’m sure she thinks I’m terrible parent or whatever. I like to consider myself and active parent/perfectionist. I don’t like for others to be in control of their perception of me. In other words I don’t want to give anyone a reason to think things about me that aren’t true. I just have to face the fact that people will talk about you and think certain things about you {& your child} no matter what you do. I just hate it.

“The most valuable thing you can make is a mistake
– you can’t learn anything from being perfect.”
Adam Osborne